I never have to see you again. Never have to speak to you again. I’m glad.. But it really takes my breath away.. That will always be a huge part of my life. Believe what you want but I truly cared for you.. I was just never really good at expressing my emotions, you expressed yours too much, & neither of us learned good communication.. We made mistakes.. Some larger than others, but we should’ve never kept score. We were just a couple of stupid kids with too much faith in something we both knew was destined to fail. I’m sorry I hurt you in ALL the ways that I did. I’m sorry I couldn’t be there the way you wanted me to be. Apparently what I put in wasn’t enough.. But I was hurting too.. You were ripped away from me. Skype, packages, letters, & phone calls just wasn’t enough.. I needed YOU.. So many times. I suppose that’s why I turned into such a resentful cunt. It’s all irrelevant now though. We crashed & burned & went our separate ways.. You told me to let go.. Move on, get over you.. So that’s exactly what I did.. & guess what? He’s amazing. He treats me right. He’s patient with me. He talks to me. He’s there for me.. He’s everything I wanted you to be but for some reason you just weren’t.. Don’t get me wrong I know you tried.. But I guess that’s part of my point.. I don’t have to try to be happy anymore.. I just am. I never thought I’d get out of the funk you put me in.. I thought it would hurt forever.. Okay that’s dramatic, but we know what I mean.. But I don’t hurt anymore.. & honestly I feel sorry for you. Idk if you hurt, & I don’t want to know.. But If you’re on the path I think you’re on it will only lead to more failure & ultimately more heartache for you.. But enough of that.. I’m gonna live my happy little life & you go on & live yours. It’s really sad that this is how things had to go down.. But I guess sometimes all the pain & anger gets to be too much until one day you just explode.. I’m never gonna be there again.
I can honestly see my entire world crumbling in front of me right now..